Enough

It’s finally enough
Just too much anymore
Can’t deal with this
Shouldn’t have to

I’m done (Enough)

I’m sick of trying

I’m done (Enough)

It’s not worth it

Why didn’t I stop

Trying so hard for this
When I knew it would

Not last very long

I’m done (Enough)

I’m sick of trying

I’m done (Enough)

It’s not worth it

Too much was said

For me to ever forgive

I don’t even want to

Wake again tomorrow

I’m done (Enough)

I’m sick of trying

I’m done (Enough)

It’s not worth it

Bleed and cry but

Nothing ever changes

No effort of mine

Makes things better

I’m done (Enough)

I’m sick of trying

I’m done (Enough)

It’s not worth it

I refuse to feel guilty

Over letting you go

Sometimes giving up

Is the only way forward

I’m done (Enough)

I’m sick of trying

I’m done (Enough)

It’s not worth it

In the Dark - Part 9

That night, I dream. And in my dream, I see my kin. They are gathered around me as I carve into the hide of a monster, spilling its life’s blood onto the ground. Their eyes are solemn, and they don’t say a word, merely watch in judgment.


When I wake up, I feel empty. I don't know whether they would approve of me now or not. Would they, if they were still alive? I suppose it doesn’t matter. After all, if they were still here, I would have no reason to hunt the monsters.


Lying in the dark, I remember the feel of blood running down my arms, of my joy at ending that monster’s existence. I still feel a burning vindication deep in my chest, even while I know the others are still lamenting their lost friend. I don’t know whether I should join them or not. I doubt it. After all, I didn’t really know him. Instead, I leave them to their private mourning. There’s no reason for me to interfere.

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Betrayal

Honest, so very cold and clear

Ice in my skull

Icicles clinging to my soul

Creation

So detailed, so soft

So fragile to the touch

Something to treasure

To hold onto forever

What a precious gift

Shared between us

This night all silent

Calm with suspense

Waiting for the moment

The beginning a gentle

Awakening, reach out

To hold close and shelter

Spin slowly into new shapes

Mold into something truly

Surprising and sturdy

Strong enough to last

But I'm Fine

What to do when nothing goes right
What to do when nothing’s enough

When it’s too hard to try anymore
When all I want is to lie down forever

It’s just too much

All too damn much

Getting nowhere at all

Sick of even trying

Sick of getting up

Of hurting all the time

Knowing it will all fail

No matter what I try

What to do when nothing goes right

What to do when nothing’s enough

When it’s too hard to try anymore
When all I want is to lie down forever

Too hard to hold on

Tough to stay awake

Instead of sleeping forever

And forgetting everything

Just too tired anymore

It’s not worth pushing

When nothing ever works

And I fall again and again

What to do when nothing goes right

What to do when nothing’s enough

When it’s too hard to try anymore
When all I want is to lie down forever

Damn this feeling I can’t

Get rid of, can’t make

Myself care anymore

No longer really feel alive

What to do when nothing goes right

What to do when nothing’s enough

When it’s too hard to try anymore
When all I want is to lie down forever