Carry Me

Would anyone really notice 

if I walked out the door and never came back
Would anyone ever wonder
where I was if I never showed up again

There’s a part of me that knows
that if I left I’d never really be missed
I could disappear today and no one
would worry if I didn’t call them again

So why don’t I just lie down
and sleep and never wake back up
Why don’t I stop trying and just admit defeat
If no one else is going to care
why do I have to
Why am I the one
that’s so easily forgotten

If I never called and never wrote
would anyone remember my name
When I walk through a crowd
does anyone notice me passing by

I’m never anything but a burden
on everyone I’ve ever known
So why would they care if I packed
my things and left them alone

Why don’t I just lie down
and sleep and never wake back up
Why don’t I stop trying and just admit defeat
If no one else is going to care
why do I have to
Why am I the one
that’s so easily forgotten

I’d be cold living on the streets
and begging for food is hard
It hurts not to have a place to relax
to never trust anyone again

But wouldn’t the pain be worth it
if I wasn’t bothering anyone anymore
Being all alone isn’t so hard
when at least you’re not a disappointment

Why don’t I just lie down
and sleep and never wake back up
Why don’t I stop trying and just admit defeat
If no one else is going to care
why do I have to
Why am I the one
that’s so easily forgotten

So maybe I should just disappear
one night after everyone else is asleep
Not leave a note promising to keep in touch
no ties or obligations

Would it be for me or for everyone else 

if I just started walking and didn’t look back
Maybe I’d finally figure out
who I am with no one else to rely on
to carry me