Killing Hope

A life of contentment
Would be so easy to achieve

Why do I struggle and make
Myself so miserable while
Searching for happiness
When I could be content instead?

Is happiness so important that I must
Risk myself so often for the chance to
Love what I do for a living?

Wouldn’t it be better to just give
Up? Do something I hate for the security
Of stability? Why do I have to keep
Holding out hope for something more?

This feeling is killing me slowly