11.22.2015

Return to Sender - Prologue

Return to Sender


Prologue:

Everything all started when a small, unmarked package arrived mysteriously during the night.

In the morning, I found it sitting on my kitchen table when I went to make coffee. The wrapping paper was brown and plain, unadorned with any address or postage. The only writing on it was a short missive: ‘Return to Sender’. The message was written out in a pretty cursive across the top in red ink.

Needless to say, I was surprised and confused by this strange package’s sudden appearance. What was I supposed to do with this? Even more importantly, how had it appeared inside my apartment without me knowing? A quick internet search while the coffee was brewing didn’t yield me any answers. The post office didn’t sound like they’d touch it without some sort of proof of postage.

It seemed so personal, too. Not necessarily in a good way, either. My eyes couldn’t help darting to the front door, and I resigned myself to a thorough check around my home to make sure no windows were broken anywhere. There was nothing out of place, though. Nothing but that package.

Eventually, I decided to pour myself a drink and then sit down at my table and just open it, get rid of the suspense. I grabbed a knife, but it almost wasn’t necessary. The paper parted easily, and within was a small and light box barely longer than the width of my hand. It was a pretty red-brown that I assumed meant it was made from some kind of cherry wood. On the top was carved some designs that looked almost like an intricate Celtic knot, and when I lifted the box up to peer closer, I saw a tiny keyhole on one side.

An investigation of the discarded wrapping yielded nothing else, though. No key, and no note. Disappointed, I gingerly shook the box, turning it over to see if there was anything taped on the bottom. While I definitely heard something moving around inside, I still couldn’t see any way to easily open it. I pressed my fingers against the sides, wondering if it was one of those puzzle boxes, but no clever latches formed along the edges. The design on the top remained the same. After a few minutes, I carefully set it back down, feeling let down that I couldn’t seem to open it, and a hundred times more curious than before. On my way to get a second cup of coffee, I resolved to somehow solve the little box’s mysteries.

Though I couldn’t have known it at the time, the box would reveal its secrets to me all on its own, and I would regret learning them forever. The arrival of that box was the beginning of everything, the start of a war that would tear apart a world I didn’t even know existed back then, a war that would later become known as ‘The Seven Years of Blood’.

Take Care

Relax and eat your favorite foods
Enjoy that movie you wanted to see
Wear those ugly old socks proudly
Raise that warm cup to your lips

Let those memories all die
Like waves breaking upon the shore
Let those hopes and dreams fade away
To be reborn new on the morrow

Turn those wistful sighs into laughter
Lie down in the sunshine and flowers
Hum softly in the shower
Dance silly around every corner

Let those memories all die
Like waves breaking upon the shore
Let those hopes and dreams fade away
To be reborn new on the morrow

Breathe in the smell of home
Lay down your head and rest your eyes
Wrap yourself gently in large blankets
Push all your problems away

Let those memories all die
Like waves breaking upon the shore
Let those hopes and dreams fade away
To be reborn new on the morrow

Shove those dark fears aside
Throw away all those old pains
Quit dragging that heavy anchor
Float without worry pulling you under

Let those memories all die
Like waves breaking upon the shore
Let those hopes and dreams fade away
To be reborn new on the morrow

Join Us

Okay, here’s the deal. You don’t need to have all of your shit together in order to count. No, really. The truth is that even the people around you who seem to know what they’re doing, and act like they’re in control of their lives, are mostly faking it. Yes, even that person. Even the most together and on-the-ball person you know, who always pays their bills on time and never has a hair out of place. None of us knows what we’re doing most of the time. No matter how high or how hard you climb, there will never be a plateau you can reach where suddenly everything in your life magically sorts itself out and makes complete sense.

There is always one more hill to climb. We don’t all reach a certain age and then feel like we fit in or belong. In one way or another, every one of use feels like an outcast, a fake, and we’re all desperately hoping that the person sitting next to us doesn’t notice that we don’t belong. There is never an age when you’re too old to feel vulnerable, or like the world’s biggest fool.

Just remember that you’re not alone. Some people may hide it very well, but the reality is that we’re all fumbling around in the dark trying to find the damn light switch, bumping into furniture along the way. Sometimes, it’s even fun. More often, it’s terrifying. The best times are a little bit of both.

You can get hurt. You will get hurt, eventually. That’s all right, too. It happens to everyone. We all bleed and bruise.

It’s perfectly okay to be afraid, to be unsure and wary, to hesitate and regret. There is no vaccine against this struggle, not even wisdom. And because of this, because it happens to all of us, understand that you will never truly be alone. So join us as we all stumble around trying to get our shit together. We’ll show you how it’s done.

Sweet Dreams

Let me sleep

I’m so tired lying here right now
Beyond my closed and shuttered eyelids
A curtain of darkness fills my vision

I want to sleep

All my dreams have been so wonderful lately
Daring adventures on far-off worlds
All await me when I fall into bed

I cannot sleep

No rest for weary, wandering souls
My limbs weigh me down but want to move
My mind alert from the restless energy

Should I sleep?

What waits for me when slumber takes hold?
How easy is it for dreams to turn harsh and cold?
No solace to be found in nightmares?

Now I sleep

Such a long rest to shelter and comfort me
My body’s long fight seems to leave me at last
Leaving nothing behind while I slumber in peace