10.23.2019

The Present


Lucy doesn’t like going to visit her grandparents very much.

She doesn’t remember them, because they both died before she was born, so it’s kind of boring to stand in the cemetery and visit them. Lucy also doesn’t like how sad her mom is after they go.

Still, Lucy is five years old now, and so she’s old enough to understand that sometimes you have to do things that you don’t really want to do. She makes a flower crown that morning, and lays it on her grandma’s grave when they arrive. She also has some flowers tied together in a bundle for her grandpa, and puts them down on his. After that, though, there’s nothing else for Lucy to do.

Her mom stands beside their graves for a long time. She always does this, and then she always starts crying, and Lucy doesn’t like that at all. She walks a little ways away, looking at the other graves and wondering whose parents are buried there. She doesn’t go too far away, but she doesn’t like to look at her mom while the woman talks with her mom and dad.

It’s sad that they’re dead, and Lucy wishes that she could have met them, and sometimes she does tell them about something that’s happening in her life while she and her mom visits. There’s nothing new going on right now, though, so Lucy is silent. She’s not having a birthday anytime soon, and she’s already been in school for one whole year. What else is there?

“Hello, there,” someone says suddenly.

Lucy looks up at the sound of the voice, and an old lady is smiling down at her. Her hair is really pretty, and so are her eyes. They remind Lucy of her mom’s.

“Hi,” she replies. Lucy isn’t supposed to talk to strangers, but this is a cemetery, so the rules might be different. Besides, her mom is still standing only a few feet away.

“Are you here visiting someone?” the lady asks her.

Nodding, Lucy points back at her mom. “We’re talking to my grandparents,” she says, making sure to speak slowly and enunciate each word carefully.

The lady looks over at Lucy’s mom and smiles sadly. “It’s difficult to lose loved ones,” she says. “You seemed lonely, so I decided to come say hello.”

Lucy thinks that’s very nice of the lady, when she probably has other things to do. “It’s nice to meet you,” she says, because Lucy knows how to be polite. “My name’s Lucy.”

“Lucy is a very pretty name,” the lady says, and Lucy smiles happily. She likes that this lady thinks her name is pretty. “Well, Lucy, I have a gift for you.”

The lady reaches up to her neck and takes off her necklace, and, to Lucy’s delight and astonishment, the lady holds out the necklace towards her.

“I can really have it?” Lucy wonders.

The lady nods. “Yes, I think it’s perfect for you.”

Lucy reaches out a hand, and the lady drops the necklace into her palm. It’s yellow, and Lucy thinks that it’s gold, and it has a small, red rose hanging from the chain, and it’s the prettiest thing that Lucy has ever seen.

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Five-year-old Lucy is at the cemetery visiting her grandparents with her mom when she’s given a very special present by a mysterious lady. Now, every day is an adventure for Lucy, as she tries to help the strange people around her who seem to appear and vanish very suddenly!

The past merges with the present in this fun, yet haunting, short story.

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10.18.2019

On My Own

On my own
I’ve had to do everything
On my own
Never known any other way
On my own
Is how I prefer things
On my own
With all my hopes and wishes
I’ve had to fight for everything
Nothing worth what was taken away
Made so many mistakes in my life
No one else to blame but myself
No one to hold me up and let me see
No one to tell me that I can do it
No one to give me a foundation
No one on the other end of the call
When all you’ve known is loss
When all you’ve known is defeat
When all you’ve known is sadness
When all you’ve known is fading
I’ve had to give myself everything
Because no one’s ever done it for me
Never got anything, so I had to punch
And kick for every last breath in me
On my own
I have to make or break it
On my own
I do everything that’s needed
On my own
I have to throw away all my dreams
On my own
With no one ever there for me

Blue


Blue
Lines coming down
All around
Twist and shape
Fade away
Sky high
Endless spiral down
Into the ground
No one around
Fall into the ocean
Or the clouds
Who cares or knows why
Happy or sad
All alone now Without anyone around In this town Blue

The Lies

Who cares if you can’t carry a tune?
Who says you have to sound good?
Who told you that you have to be perfect?
Who made you think you aren’t enough?
Who says you can’t ever make a mistake?
Who made you flinch when someone smiles?
Who told you all those lies you believe?
Who cares about their own pain, not yours?
Who told you what the real world is like?
Who cares about those broken promises?
Who made you shatter into a thousand pieces?
Who says you can’t learn to live for yourself?

Away From You

Pull my hair up
Ready to go
Got my game face on
Ready to meet you
Hear you
Fear you
Ready to deal with it all
Put on my makeup
Ready to go outside
Encounter something new
Ready to see
To Hope
To Bleed
Ready for failure once more
Tie on my shoes
Ready to run
Hard on the pavement
Ready to go so far
Anywhere
Everywhere
Ready to get away from you