Worth It

I think you should go

Leave, get out of here
Take that chance you
Always wanted to try

It’s going to be hard, and
You’re going to wish you’d
Just die to escape from it all
But the ending’s so worth it

Nothing’s stopping you
Now except your own
Fears, so chin up and go
For it once and for all

It’s going to be hard, and
You’re going to wish you’d
Just die to escape from it all
But the ending’s so worth it

You’ll never fail if you
Don’t try, and never win
If you don’t reach out for
What it is you really want

It’s going to be hard, and
You’re going to wish you’d
Just die to escape from it all
But the ending’s so worth it

So forget all the excuses
And quit stalling for time
Because it’s never going to
Happen if you don’t start

It’s going to be hard, and
You’re going to wish you’d
Just die to escape from it all
But the ending’s so worth it

Force yourself, even when
It’s so painful you could
Cry, even when you don’t
Succeed the first time, try

And try again, always one
More time, push yourself
Further, past all the self-
Doubt and recriminations

It’s going to be hard, and
You’re going to wish you’d
Just die to escape from it all
But the ending’s so worth it

That’s the only way to look
Back with no regrets, even
When things don’t turn out
Like you thought they would

It’s going to be hard, and
You’re going to wish you’d
Just die to escape from it all
But the ending’s so worth it

So go for it, tell yourself that the
Time is now, and you’re not
Waiting on yourself any more
For your future to finally begin

It’s going to be hard, and 

You’re going to wish you’d
Just die to escape from it all
But the ending’s so worth it

In the Dark - Part 2

The image of their teeth will never leave my dreams. More than the sounds of my tribe dying all around me, I’ll never forget the way those monsters all smiled at the feast before them when they finally entered the clearing.

I’m running now. I’ve been traveling constantly for so many days that I’ve lost track. I have very little water, and no food, but I can’t make myself stop. I almost didn’t survive. No one else did. I wouldn’t have, if one of our elders hadn’t pushed me behind him, into the shadows. I’d thought at first that he was just performing some last, desperate act of shielding me from the sight of the monsters starting to tear into our loved ones.

“Go. Climb that tree. Stay still, and when they’re all occupied, go.”

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Everything We Were

I can barely hear your voice when you call my name
Can’t really tell what you want from me
While all I know is how I once used to wait for you
Now your face is blurred in my memory

Call me sometime, maybe
Just so I can hear you
Because I don’t want to forget
Everything we were

Still I hope you’re somewhere great, warm and safe
Making all your dreams come true
And If I ever come across some mention of you
I’ll be sure to cheer on each success

Call me sometime, maybe
Just so I can hear you
Because I don’t want to forget
Everything we were

You know I’ve got all these goals I’m aiming for
But they never mattered to you
So can you blame me when I chose to walk out that door
Knowing that you’d soon get over me

See, all I think is that we’re much better when apart
No more petty fights every day
Now we’re both finally free to be the people we should be
And baby, I’m so glad we called it quits

But call me sometime, maybe
Just so I can hear you
Because I don’t want to forget
Everything we were

Call me sometime, maybe
Just so I can hear you
Because I don’t want to forget
Everything we were

Everything we were

Ashes in the Wind

Let’s make this hurt more
This selfish wish of mine
To be free, let the blood
Run down, covering me
What should I sacrifice
Something precious and
Fragile, worthy of my goal
I’m splintering into a million
Shards, but there’s nothing
To hold onto in this storm
My only choice is to light
The fire and burn my flesh
To hear my tortured screams
Until the very last, when it’s
Done and I’m nothing but the
Empty shell I started out as
Though hopefully I will be
Holding onto something new
And shiny to cradle in my hands
To tell myself that all my pain
Held some meaning, purpose,
Other than amusement, but
What will I do if I open my
palms and all that’s in them
Is ash and cinders, and I can’t
Keep them in my grasp, can
Only watch as they slip through
My shaking fingers, the smell of
Sulfur in my nose, cracked lips
Parting in a silent cry of despair
As everything I gave up becomes
For nothing, was never enough for
The toll, what will I give then, all
Of me, everything, my soul, but
What if that’s not enough either
And the only thing that remains
After is dust scattered in the wind 

All Our Mistakes

Sometimes I can’t get up, can’t

Force myself to move from this
Bed that we used to lay in together
Whispering secrets in the night

To each other, how we used
To laugh at all our crazy dreams
All the wild goals we’d achieve
When we were older and wiser

Something in me broke, but I was
So relieved when you let me go
When you had the strength to walk
Away from me and all our mistakes

I guess we’re older now, because we’ve
Grown up and moved apart, and
This shouldn’t hurt like it does
Alone in this bed that was ours

Something in me broke, but I was
So relieved when you let me go
When you had the strength to walk
Away from me and all our mistakes

Now when my hand reaches
Out, you’re not there to reach
Back, to hold me tight, to keep
Me close, like when it was both

Of us against the whole world
That’s all gone now, and there’s
Nothing but empty space next to
Me now, still in your familiar shape

Something in me broke, but I was
So relieved when you let me go
When you had the strength to walk
Away from me and all our mistakes

We’re nothing but a shadow that fades
Away like fog in the dawn, and I’m
Left with nothing but the silent tears
Falling where you last kissed me

On the corner of my lips, pressing
Softly and sweetly as you said good-bye
Will I ever forget the way you smiled
Sadly before you turned your back

Something in me broke, but I was
So relieved when you let me go
When you had the strength to walk
Away from me and all our mistakes

Until then, our bed is still made for
Two, me and you, even though I know
You’re not coming back, I’ll breathe
You in until your scent disappears

Something in me broke, but I was

So relieved when you let me go
When you had the strength to walk
Away from me and all our mistakes