Almost

Spread my wings and soar so high
What would eternity with you be like?

Because we almost did it, baby
Yeah, we were almost there once
So when I see you now, baby
Sometimes I think we should start us

Take the time to call you up
Picture the smile I hear in your voice

Talk and laugh all through the night
How easy it seems to share with you

Finally, we’ll both fall asleep
After catching up on everything

Because we almost did it, baby
Yeah, we were almost there once
So when I see you now, baby
Sometimes I think we should start us

Ready to trust once again
Refuse to let the doubts crowd my mind

It’s time to forget the past
Enjoy the future moments that we’ll share

Can’t wait to get us started
Have so many plans that already include you

Because we almost did it, baby
Yeah, we were almost there once
So when I see you now, baby
Sometimes I think we should start us

Let’s gamble and roll the dice
Are we ready for the rest of our lives?

Because we almost did it, baby
Yeah, we were almost there once
And when I see you now, baby
Sometimes I think we should start us

Deep Roller

Tiny bird, all alone
Where are your wings?
Deep breaths and take my hand
As we fall down from the sky

Land in the gutter
Bruised and battered and broken inside
Black and burnt feathers all around me
Such a filthy mess

Kicked to the curb
Snow so soft and cold on my lashes
Drifting past my tear-frozen cheeks
Shivering and numb

Tossed out the door
Treasured memories thrown out behind me
Bent over to gather up what I can
Shaking from the stress

Dropped on the floor
Arms wrapped around me to soften the blow
Curling up tighter but already so small
Aching all over

Smashed against the wall
Bite my tongue and forced to swallow the blood
Teeth rattled loose and my lips quivering
Scared to raise my head

Left all alone
Even a desperate call goes unanswered
No friendly voice and no place to stay
No right path to take

Little bird, all alone

Where are your wings?
Deep breaths and take my hand
As we fall down from the sky

Give Me Wings

I feel locked inside my soul

Sealed for all eternity

No spell or incantation

Will ever release me

I yearn for the stars

To discover everything

Both known and not

And never return

I want to slip beyond

The fabric of this existence

Become dust and ether

Time ceasing to exist

I ache to be part of every story

To learn magic and transform

Journey on an adventure

See where it leads me

I wish to be important

For destiny to unfold around me

Ancient prophecies foretelling my coming

Some purpose that awaits me

Treatment

Yesterday, I said good-bye for the very last time

And now today, I’m looking at the scattered pieces of my life

Picking up the shards to start putting them back together

Because I meant the words I said

And I meant those tears I cried

The plans that I smashed against a wall

This life of ours I turned my back on

Yesterday, I took my key back and locked the door

And now today, I open the windows to let in the sunshine

Breathing in the fresh air that enters with you now gone

Because I meant the words I said

And I meant those tears I cried

The plans that I smashed against a wall

This life of ours I turned my back on

Yesterday, I erased your messages and blocked your number

And now today, I pack up the last of your boxes to send over

Cleaning up every last part of you that remains here

Because I meant the words I said

And I meant those tears I cried

The plans that I smashed against a wall

This life of ours I turned my back on

Yesterday, I lit the incense to burn your scent away

And now today, I light some candles to enjoy their warm glow

Watching the flames as they dance across my memories

Because I meant the words I said

And I meant those tears I cried

The plans that I smashed against a wall

This life of ours I turned my back on

Yesterday, I cut your cancer right out of me

Now today, I’ve finally stitched myself back together

Creating something new and stronger and wiser

Because I meant the words I said

And I meant those tears I cried

The plans that I smashed against a wall

This life of ours I turned my back on

Wonderland

One thousand and one

Still many more times to count

The snowflake’s beauty

Formula

We are stardust and sublime

Priceless and fragile, our cores of iron

To be heated and tempered and chilled

We are plague and pestilence

Death and triumph, our souls of war

To be fought and defied and gloried

We are eternity and ancient

Protected and sheltered, our hearts of history

To be preserved and taught and learned

We are fate and future

Reckless and stunning, our feats of magic

To be dreamed of and encouraged and admired

12.12.2015

“The moment we stop believing we’re immortal is the moment of our deaths.”