Away From You

A ladybug lands on my arm
It takes all my effort not to crush
This small life beneath my fingers
I am so jealous that it gets to fly away

How come all the time
What I want never matters
How come every single time
I have to bow down to your whims

Today, I try to be a better person
Every day, I try not to be what you made me
Sometimes, it works, and I’m so glad to be free
Most often, I’m trapped in your song, your melody

How come all the time
What I want never matters
How come every single time
I have to bow down to your whims

You make me dance to your tune
When I don’t know the steps anymore
Need to get off this silly metaphor
Life isn’t as sweet as a song for me

How come all the time
What I want never matters
How come every single time
I have to bow down to your whims

I want to be free of you and me and everything
Can’t tell you how tired I am of being here
Can’t make you understand how much it hurts
Not to know what the freedom to choose feels like

How come all the time
What I want never matters
How come every single time
I have to bow down to your whims

I need to do something for myself, just once
Can’t I be selfish for the first time in my whole life
Why do I always have to be what you want me to be
Why doesn’t what I want ever truly matter to you

How come all the time
What I want never matters
How come every single time
I have to bow down to your whims

Guess I’ll just have to take a gasp of air
Jump out of the airplane next time
Hold my breath and make a wish on a star
Let myself fall and not care if I hit the ground

How come all the time
What I want never matters
How come every single time
I have to bow down to your whims

As long as I can open my eyes and see the open skies
Then who cares what’s going to happen after
As long as my actions are finally my own
I’ll do anything I can, to get away from you